We do for others because we don't know how to do for ourselves. We do for others because we feel it is the only way to make up for the damage we feel our craziness is doing to society. We do for others because it makes us feel good when nothing else in the whole world does, not even pills. We stay quiet and sit in the corner because others seem so much more needy. We require so little, you and I. A fact which does not sit well with others who would label us as too much to handle. When in truth, all those such as us really need is a bit of understanding, a bit of reciprocation, maybe a touch on the cheek once in a while and a sly wink. The rest of the world is needy. I'd rather be crazy. ~~Aimee

Wednesday 13 April 2011

It Doesn't Mean I am Wrong




 "Just because I do things differently from you doesn't mean they are wrong. It just means they are DIFFERENT! Why can't you understand that? Having my every single action "critiqued" is more than I can handle. I didn't grow up in a family. I am the square that will never truly fit in the round hole even if you somehow manage to squeeze me through.

Please try to understand I am different. I like being different. My past has made me different. Constantly telling me to "forget my past" is extremely demeaning. It makes me feel as if I am somehow not good enough. As if that little girl I use to be is somehow to blame for all that happened to her, and she isn't. She is just as innocent as I am. You have to stop trying to "forget" and start trying to "accept" because forgetting doesn't make it go away. It just makes it fester and boil until it finally explodes. I am tired of festering and exploding. I just want to be.

Even if I am different, it doesn't mean I am wrong."









 
This was for a writing prompt for Studio 30+. The writing prompt was RISK. This weekend I learned to stand up for myself. It took me 2 days and several attempts before I got up the courage, but I am glad I did. It was definitely a risk worth taking.

3 comments:

Haven said...

How can you forget your past? It’s what’s made you who you are today. That’s like saying, forget about who you are. Denying who you are is only going to hurt you in the long run. Embrace it, understand it, and move forward.

Maasiyat said...

You guys are awesome with a side of spectacular. It's nice to at least have this place where people seem to "understand". Definitely a new thing for me.

Ms. Baldman said...

I hate the word normal. What is normal? There is no real definition for it when you are working with people. What is normal to one person is not normal for another. That is a fact. I wish that so many people in the Counseling/Psychological fields would stop using that word. It is one of my pet peeves. You are perfect. As you. <3

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