I talk to myself. Not in the muttering under my breath, aliens can hear, wear my tin hat kinda way. Also not in the "I hear voices that tell me to slap the stupid out of you" kinda way either.
Take for instance, my BFF Sam. I talk to Sam pretty much on a daily basis. Literally and in my own quirky way. If I read something, see something, or think something, then in my head I tell Sam. I know Sam well enough I can pretty much guess what her reply will be and in my head I not only hold my end of the conversation but hers as well. I don't know what part of bipolarism this falls in or if it's just part of my own special blend of awesomeness, but after one of our conversations, I have the same exact feeling as if I had actually just spoken with Sam.
I don't just do this with Sam, but pretty much everyone. Even people I've never actually spoken with. Some random nijjit on the internet might write something that amuses me and I'll make up a conversation with them. Maybe their replies are what I'd want them to say. Maybe it's a conversation I'd hope we'd have. Why I don't just actually message or talk to the person I'm not quite sure. Maybe it's some form of self protection. Maybe I"m just mind fucked (that's my word of the day btw). I've searched on the googletron, but that was less than helpful. I don't really know what to call this or if anyone else even does this. I've never actually told this to anyone either. Not even Sam. Even though we talk everyday.
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I do this ALL. The. Time. All the time. Over and over. My conversations will go different ways or the same way each time. But I often hold conversations wiht people I want to talk to (in my own head or aloud when no one is around), or people that I wish would say things to me, or any number of things, every day. I don't know if this is normal or not, but you're definitely not alone.
Oh yes. I do it, too. Sometimes it bites you in the ass, though. Because I will tend to forget when the conversation was virtual as opposed to actual. So when Sarge says (or insert any name here), "Why didn't you talk to me about this?" I usually think, "But I did! I swear we talked about this!" And then he says "Yeah, maybe in your private little fantasy world." And then I'm all like.... "touche..."
I do that too. Not remember if it was real "or virtual".lol I'm gonna have to steal that one and use it. Or when people say "I haven't heard from you in weeks" and I think "but wdidn't we just talk yesterday?"
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