Pet peeves. I have many. My biggest? Fakeness. Pretense. Specifically pretending to be interested and/or concerned about my well being when in reality you're not. I am not as stupid as I pretend to be. I see more than people realize. Call it a gift. A sixth sense. Whatever, but I'm not stupid. I don't understand why people do this. It makes no sense to me. If you want something from me, then just say that. Don't pretend to be my friend. Don't pretend to be concerned about me when you're not. Just be honest. Truthful Say what you want but don't act like you care for me when we both know you don't.
Fucktarded people! Everything is just getting on my nerves lately. Little things that I usually could over look seem inflated a thousand times over. I just want to run. Far. Run. I want to be ok. Now. Not a year from now. Not two years from now, but NOW. I'm ready to LIVE not just SURVIVE but I can't. I'm still in survival mode. I can't come out of it. Not now. If I did then I would lose everything. I'm still not out. I still have a long way to go before I'm out, but I'm ready to be out NOW. I want out NOW.
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I hate pretense also. I have no friends around where I live as I don't trust and get burnt.
I think this is an unfortunate, and common, scenario for many of us. I can count on one hand the number of people I'd call friend. Everyone else is just someone I know.
Just so you know...if you need me just shout. I'm in hiding at the moment with the exception of comments on facebook. I guess I'm craving that safety that I know only I can provide me with? Make sense?
Anywho...love and hugs...
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