We do for others because we don't know how to do for ourselves. We do for others because we feel it is the only way to make up for the damage we feel our craziness is doing to society. We do for others because it makes us feel good when nothing else in the whole world does, not even pills. We stay quiet and sit in the corner because others seem so much more needy. We require so little, you and I. A fact which does not sit well with others who would label us as too much to handle. When in truth, all those such as us really need is a bit of understanding, a bit of reciprocation, maybe a touch on the cheek once in a while and a sly wink. The rest of the world is needy. I'd rather be crazy. ~~Aimee

Thursday, 24 March 2011


I have become somewhat addicted to the Bipolar Burble. If you have never read her blog, then I suggest you check it out. Natasha Tracy, the author of the blog, has been doing a few posts on ECT ((electroconvulsive therapy, previously electroshock therapy or shock therapy). I have never had ECT. I only know one person who did and that was many moons ago during one of my hospitalizations. My roommate had them, but she was transfered a few days after I arrived so I don't know what happened with her.

Natasha has said openly that she has had ECT and she is currently featuring another blog author the Bipolar Badger who has also had ECT and apparently both have had successful experiences. ECT like most meds isn't for everyone, but it makes sense to me after hearing their stories.

The closest I had ever come was movies and we all know how true to reality Hollywood is. In my bipolar brain, I can understand why ECT might be effective in some people. I mean obviously the wiring is not firing on all cylinders for those with mental illness. When your car won't start, you jump start it. I don't think I will hook myself up with jumper cables anytime soon, but it is something to think about. ECT I mean not jumper cables. Don't be stupid like that one kid who shocked his nipples unless you're into shocking your nipples then by all means shock away. My nipples and I however will stand a safe distance away.

If my world wasn't the color that it is, then I would definitely be institutionalized. Jigger keeps me level, sane. There is no way I could go back and even begin to function with any level of "normalcy". I just couldn't. Something inside me snapped way back when. Something that can't be repaired. I have fought my way back out of the darkness, but if Jigger didn't hold the candle, then I would have remained in the darkness. If I ever did have to go, I definitely would look into ECT. My moods are very dark and very deep.

What about you all? Would you get shocked? Yes? No? Maybe? Just on the nipples?

1 comment:

Aimee said...

Suddenly I have a raging desire to shock my nipples.


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