We do for others because we don't know how to do for ourselves. We do for others because we feel it is the only way to make up for the damage we feel our craziness is doing to society. We do for others because it makes us feel good when nothing else in the whole world does, not even pills. We stay quiet and sit in the corner because others seem so much more needy. We require so little, you and I. A fact which does not sit well with others who would label us as too much to handle. When in truth, all those such as us really need is a bit of understanding, a bit of reciprocation, maybe a touch on the cheek once in a while and a sly wink. The rest of the world is needy. I'd rather be crazy. ~~Aimee

Friday, 16 September 2011

Kick to the Gut

Life seems to throw curve balls from every direction, but this one just I don't even know how to process. An extremely close friend of Jigger's just died. As in Jigger just got the phone call about an hour before I started writing this. He immediately left to go to his friend's house. He was shaking when he left. It's a complete and total shock. The friend was in his 30's so to die from a sudden heart attack was totally unexpected. 

Jigger was devastated. He most likely will be gone until tomorrow after the funeral. I don't even know how to process it. There is so much shit going on between Jigger and me and it all seems so silly and petty now. Jigger and I are the same age as his friend. It makes me think what if tomorrow I woke up and Jigger wasn't here. How would I function? I'm not quite sure. 

All I know is for the next days/weeks/months I've got to hold my shit together. For him. This will rock Jigger's world. It will take him a long time to get over this. Actually he'll never really get over it but he'll get past it.

1 comment:

Sapphire Dragonflies said...

As always, my thoughts are with you. I wish I could reach across the big pond and hug you. I will pray for peace and comfort for you both. Much love, SD


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