"Just because I do things differently from you doesn't mean they are wrong. It just means they are DIFFERENT! Why can't you understand that? Having my every single action "critiqued" is more than I can handle. I didn't grow up in a family. I am the square that will never truly fit in the round hole even if you somehow manage to squeeze me through.
Please try to understand I am different. I like being different. My past has made me different. Constantly telling me to "forget my past" is extremely demeaning. It makes me feel as if I am somehow not good enough. As if that little girl I use to be is somehow to blame for all that happened to her, and she isn't. She is just as innocent as I am. You have to stop trying to "forget" and start trying to "accept" because forgetting doesn't make it go away. It just makes it fester and boil until it finally explodes. I am tired of festering and exploding. I just want to be.
Please try to understand I am different. I like being different. My past has made me different. Constantly telling me to "forget my past" is extremely demeaning. It makes me feel as if I am somehow not good enough. As if that little girl I use to be is somehow to blame for all that happened to her, and she isn't. She is just as innocent as I am. You have to stop trying to "forget" and start trying to "accept" because forgetting doesn't make it go away. It just makes it fester and boil until it finally explodes. I am tired of festering and exploding. I just want to be.
Even if I am different, it doesn't mean I am wrong."
This was for a writing prompt for Studio 30+. The writing prompt was RISK. This weekend I learned to stand up for myself. It took me 2 days and several attempts before I got up the courage, but I am glad I did. It was definitely a risk worth taking.
3 comments:
How can you forget your past? It’s what’s made you who you are today. That’s like saying, forget about who you are. Denying who you are is only going to hurt you in the long run. Embrace it, understand it, and move forward.
You guys are awesome with a side of spectacular. It's nice to at least have this place where people seem to "understand". Definitely a new thing for me.
I hate the word normal. What is normal? There is no real definition for it when you are working with people. What is normal to one person is not normal for another. That is a fact. I wish that so many people in the Counseling/Psychological fields would stop using that word. It is one of my pet peeves. You are perfect. As you. <3
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