We do for others because we don't know how to do for ourselves. We do for others because we feel it is the only way to make up for the damage we feel our craziness is doing to society. We do for others because it makes us feel good when nothing else in the whole world does, not even pills. We stay quiet and sit in the corner because others seem so much more needy. We require so little, you and I. A fact which does not sit well with others who would label us as too much to handle. When in truth, all those such as us really need is a bit of understanding, a bit of reciprocation, maybe a touch on the cheek once in a while and a sly wink. The rest of the world is needy. I'd rather be crazy. ~~Aimee

Tuesday 12 July 2011

Making My Skin Suit Fit



As my ever so lovely Sam pointed out. I need to make my skin suit fit better because right now it's itchy and crawly and I feel like I have a wedgie and basically am just uncomfortable. One thing that I have basically stopped since I got married is dance. I am extremely self concious about any type of exercise in front of people. 

Even in front of my husband. 

So while I do yoga (when he's sleeping), I have sort of slacked off the last few months. I haven't been doing yoga or any other exercise for that matter and I really think that is part of the reason I am just raging. 

Whenever I exercise it works out some of the pent up energy. It relaxes me. It helps my skin suit fit better and I think I need to somehow figure out how to make exercise/dance/yoga part of my daily routine again. 

When I lived alone I use to dance for about two hours a day so from that to nothing is a major change. One my body and mind are apparently revolting against. I exercised/danced today for about 45 mins.

Afterwards I was drenched in sweat but I felt the most peaceful and calm that I have felt in several weeks. So I am definitely going to figure out how to make this part of my daily routine. The difficult part will be continuing it once Jigger comes home.

7 comments:

teeweb9 said...

I am a relatively new follower of your blog. I stumbled across it by reading Sapphire Dragonflies' blog. First, let me say, I freaking love blog. There is so much honesty and emotion in it. Second, sometimes, reading your blog is like looking inside my own brain-minus the husband anyway. Some of your posts made me cry, because, there is another person somewhere that knows just how I feel and experiences some of the same things I do.

Exercise??? In front of other people??? Oh heavens! It is unbearable to have other people watch me doing that. I would almost rather peel my own skin off.

Thank you for allowing others into your life, via your blog. Its amazing. I love it.

not displayed said...

Jigger loves you.
Tell him you need alone time for an hour, send him on an errand
Then Dance your heart out.
He will understand especially if it makes you happier and more at ease

Haven said...

Definitely an important thing to incorporate. I think this is part of my problem as well. Between my meds and the heat I haven't been able to exercise like usual and it's really starting to get to me.

I agree with Mynx, just be open with your feelings of needing a little alone time to get in your exercise fix. He'll understand =)

MRS PRN said...

I feel my whole body buzzing after exercising, like its saying thankyou. But alas, I have been slack too Maas... I love dancing too(sorta just bopping to the music style of dance, nothing flash), swimming, walking on land and on my tready. Slack...though once I have lappy, I want to walk it off everyday.

Kim said...

I love the idea of a skin suit. And it's true for me too. I feel so much better mentally and spiritually if I move every day. But consistency is not my forte especially when I have things that take up my immediate attention. I'm always amazed by your self-knowledge and awareness. I couldn't say the same for people in my life who I'm sure could benefit from the same.

Kristy said...

I love exercise. Been very slack for months. Started recently swimming again. I fall in and out of exercise because of lack of disclpline with my mood. When I stick to it my skin fits so much better also. It really is the only thing that helps my anxiety and anger. I have a hard time setting boundaries in my relationship for my own time to meet my own needs. I need to work on it so I can keep up my new rountine that I'm working on.

Anonymous said...

For what it's worth, yesterday, Saturday, this same thing ahppened tp me.

I let the crazy out...lost my temper, left the house for a while.

Came back, Bobina kissed me like never before.

Jigger for a reason and you are his for an even better reason.

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